suiTe's siLent sCreams

2009-09-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously, nothing at work is worth mulling or crying over.

As bad as it is sometimes, one should really remember that life is not all about work (and its sufferings - if that is to be considered).

And when work can simply no longer be a joy, well, the time would be right to move on.

Change workplace, change job altogether, whatever.

Mum says that no work is easy. I agree. But why can't work stay as a joy? Why can't some of us look so much forward to coming to work everyday (I might think I can, if I don't have to do all those stuff on the sides)? There are people out there who love their jobs to bit and pieces. AND, they never have to bring their work back home.

Aha. And Mum says, "But that's the job you chose to do."

Wonder where I left my brains.

Yet I'm sure I can use this malfunctioning brain of mine to come up with a solution to this. If I don't last for another two years, I'm pretty bent to leave after one.

Just need to find out where I should go and what should do next.

Damn. All these just because of a stupid presentation.

FYI, I have been having a terrible 2 weeks. Which has made me go around announcing (to my team at least) that I want to leave in 2 years (listen up everyone, any takers??).

Frankly speaking, I don't think I have enough lifespan to handle all these.

2009-07-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

I ahve not been blogging for quite a while now, and what can be a more interesting way to start blogging again (in my own terms), than to talk about football.

Haha. Yeah, I screamed and sang my heart out (sighz, i don't normally do that) throughout the whole afternoon till night! Special mention to some players...

Jamie Carragher: My all-time hero! Why do I like him? Dependable, reliable, responsible, unstoppable. Need I say more? Well, wait till I get to Anfield to meet him!!

Dirk Kuyt: The forever hardworking guy, he really likes to run and get into the thick of things! He is really that little bright spark that keeps going and going and going and going....

Daniel Agger: He has got awfully long legs that had to dangle over the seat in front when he was sitting out at the bench before the match started. Hope he keeps playing well and establish the force I would call "Carra-Agger" of defence....

Fernando Torres: El Nino. Top class striker.

Kristian Nemeth: He keeps that up, and he might give Torres a run for his money!!

Albert Riera: Seriously, the pitch got livelier when both Kuyt and Riera came on. Now that's football man!

Javier Mascherano: I'm half-half on this one though. Haha. Well, yes, I do agree that not try to shoot on goal, but hey, I think he's the 3rd great MF we have now.

Xabi Alonso: I feel a bit sad looking at this once gorgeous clean-cut footballer looking a bit gruff and tired recently. I have a feeling that he has too many things on his mind (with the stoopid real madrid deal and stuff), which thankfully didn't affect his performance that much last night, but there was some sort of 'heaviness' surrounding him.... Perhaps he's really leaving? Which is really a very heart-wrenching news any Livvy supporters would have to endure if the deal is sealed...

Reina: Oh, this guy, was having a very lonely time in front of his goal. Seriously.

Stevie G wasn't all terribly missed actually, for the fact that the other boys made up for his absence.

But yes, not forgetting the local lads for putting up a good fight in the first half (after which the on-going substitutions made everything go downhill); frankly speaking, perhaps the Lions may have had a better chance against Livvy reserves judging from how the first half turned out (well, the first team Livvy players are world-class, you know). But well, it's all a friendly, and the experience was what counted the most (and of course to Livvy fans, seeing stars in the flesh).

Everyone wins in the end.

2009-07-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

Going crazy trying to pack for lunch everyday.

So here's my latest creation:

Butter chicken with crushed red pepper.

As you may have smartly guessed it, you'll need butter (i used the SCS brand), chicken, and crushed red pepper (this was the prepared one that you can find in a bottle). And a bit of salt. Marinate altogether, and stir-fry! Tadah!

Hee...

~Hunger is the nemesis at 1pm.

2009-06-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

One shall think no more, for it brings only agony yet pleasant things, that are, or were, well, agonizing.

Live the present and for tomorrow, dwell not the past nor those sorrows.

Look forward in life for that's what one has left, because those little 'what-ifs' can't change who one is now.

It is the truth that fate brings, and if it is fated, just why not?

~Random babbles.

2009-06-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

Suddenly remembered a song/music video that I really liked a few years back. It was my phase craze of Japanese anime and drama serials back then.... Haha... I really liked Matsu Takako in Hero, alongside Kimura Takuya!

And I really, really like this song!!

2009-05-25T13:19:00.001+08:00

Feeling giddy from the anarex!

I'm definitely not a good fan of being sick. =P

~Pow!

2009-05-21T21:05:00.002+08:00

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't do too many long distance walks in a day, everday....

And to come back to do manual traction to bilateral lower limbs towards the end of the day!

.................................................................

2009-05-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

I could, one day, die from walking.

Hey, hey, pretty serious here.

Signs & Symptoms of 'Walking-Till-Dead-Syndrome':

- confusion
- headaches
- jellied knees
- sleeping toes syndrome
- backaches
- zombified persona, right before 5pm
- hunger, right at 5pm

And loads of others.

~Oh, man.

2009-05-04T20:40:00.002+08:00

I am seeing my designated workload from a THIS, to a this.

Goodness me. And I'm missing all my uncles whom I din get a chance to say goodbye to. Especially the one who loved to sing "Di Tanjong Katong".

*sobs*

Well, enjoy it while it lasts. If ever.

~Dismantled.

2009-05-01T11:44:00.001+08:00

For our information:

http://www.moh.gov.sg/mohcorp/uploadedFiles/Web_Parts/swineflu/Swine%20Flu%20Update%2029%20Apr%2009%20(Press%20Briefing).pdf

2009-04-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

Something interesting I noted during All Saints on Tuesday.

It's about Fatal Familial Insomnia (FFI).

Taken from Wikipedia:

FFI - very rare autosomal dominant inherited prion disease of brain. Dominant gene responsible has been found in just 50 families worldwide; if only one parent has the gene, offspring have a 50% chance of inheriting it. The disease's genesis and patient's progression into complete sleeplessness is untreatable, and ultimately fatal.

FFI is caused by dual mutation in a protein called prion protein (PrP) resulting in formation of insoluble prion protein (PrPsc). This causes plaques of PrPsc to develop in the thalamus responsible for regulation of sleep. This results in insomnia, then progresses to more serious problems over time.

The age of onset is variable (30-60 years; mean 50 years). Death occurs 7 to 36 months from onset. Presentation of disease varies from person to person.

Four stages, taking 7 to 18 months:
1. Increasing insomnia, resulting in panic attacks, paranoia, and phobias - lasts for ~4 months
2. Hallucinations and panic attacks more noticeable - lasts ~5 months
3. Complete inability to sleep, followed by rapid weight loss - lasts ~3 months
4. Dementia, during which patient becomes unresponsive or mute over 6 months - final progression of disease; patient subsequently die

No cure or treatment for FFI. Sleeping pills - no helpful effect; in fact, make situation much worse.

I'm getting a bit too into all these medical conditions because of the CPE stuff that I'm doing currently. But, hey, it's good knowledge, yeah.

~Discover something new everyday.

2009-04-21T20:44:00.002+08:00

At times wonder what one is doing with her life.

And at other times wonder why the computer can be agonizingly slow.

I probably just need something to look forward to.

Any suggestions?

~Painstakingly, ridiculously slow.

2009-04-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

In case you have been wondering, "Is Su finally resigned to her fate in dealing with the hobamomos?"

Yeah, perhaps you have yet to notice, but I have not been throwing too much tantrum on this blog about them. Haha.

Just to update you, I'm not currently up in the wards where all the super action is... Now just stranded (in a good way) on little islands outside of the main building... Where all the peace and quiet is (haha, thanks to william for reminding me that I was complaining once before at some point that there would be a lack of ECs over here)...

So that explains why the lack of typical remarks and agitation that I would usually have somehow or rather.

But hey, I'm enjoying doing group therapy (That is the ONLY way to clear >10 clients in <5hrs).

By the way, I've got a mystery to solve.

How to bilateral PWB?

~Questionable.

2009-04-05T13:02:00.002+08:00

A random thought.

Just as some people are annoying idiots to us, we might actually be annoying idiots to some others.

Aha.

...

Been missing too much action up in the wards i guess.

And what's this about making the wrong choice? Some people do not need to take into consideration about certain things when arriving at a decision.

But to some others, yes they do. They have a whole lot of other things to consider prior to making a choice. We can only give advice and then hope they will make the best decision for themselves.

I've been watching too much AS. Blergh.

~Perception.

2009-04-03T19:34:00.002+08:00

Oh dammit. Now I know why Dr Sean Everleigh in All Saints looked so familiar.

It's because he was also the idiotic guy in Prison Break as well. The one that Michael tried so hard to help break out.

Now that makes sense.

~Just as well.

2009-04-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

"We should never be too bloody busy to help someone in crisis." - Dr. Frank Campion

Thanks loads to Berry yesterday for reassuring me that I might have actually helped save a life.

And yes, it is all okay now.

Just seemed surreal at that point in time.

~Many thanks.

2009-03-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

I've always liked watching All Saints, it's just that I could never figure out the timings on australian channel.

Just came across this episode.

Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR9upAx11-w&feature=related
Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_fCDqF3GTo&feature=related
Part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PAcq5FfObk&feature=related
Part 4: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2oZn19Xhehg&feature=related
Part 5: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaA0JH7Wm9M&feature=related

At times, when you realize that the people who choose to work where you are, are genuinely there for a purpose, it is even heart warming to know when they truly care.

It is not about the numbers, it is not about the money.

People's lives is not a business.

And I wouldn't want my live to be treated as a part of some deal in the future.

I'm still having some faith right now, but we'll see how long that would last.

~Wish list.

2009-03-29T12:27:00.003+08:00

A few things to summarise the week:

- Thanks guys for being at the dinner last night! Great catching up with old buddies, even though all of us are just busy with work... gotta get Fi in the next time round... And thanks to Wen Xian for sharing the same sentiments as me on lo kuns in general!! What a laugh.... wahahaha.... And I can meet Xia every week for dinner since we work so near to each other....

- Thanks to the simple comment by Jeremy on not being so gan cheong spider.... Yeah, yeah... I'll try to chill... And we'll pray hard that Liverpool will win the rest of the games in this season, while Man U players get sent off one by one for every game they have left. Erm, no Man U fans here right? =P

- Thanks to Ah Jing and Ah May for being the best BSU buddies... those scorching hot walks to the other side of the world would never be as cheerful without you guys around... Yep, and all the more we ought to be wearing skirts and dresses...

- Thank you to the whoever who left the whole page blank for me to write in my entry yesterday, but of course I have every reason to believe that they will never ever flip back again to read anything else we've written about.

- Another week has passed, and the KAAs are still untouched. Wahaha. Damn it's this close to April already!

- I want more coffee and/or dinner sessions with my buddies!! wahhhhh!!!

~Bumble bee.

2009-03-27T20:23:00.002+08:00

Su is the unfortunate victim of dehydration daily.

After all those walks here and there (and I mean it, really).

Dehydration = hyperNa = confusion

Apparently, that's not really what I need.

Perhaps we ought to stack up mineral water somewhere in one of the cupboards.

TiReD........

~Absolutely.

2009-03-17T20:59:00.002+08:00

As quoted from Taylor Swift,

"... fearless is having fears.

Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.

... fearless is about living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before.

Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again... even though every time you've tried before, you've lost.

It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change.

Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them.

... think it's fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else.

And when someone apologises to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's fearless to stop believing them.

It's fearless to say "You're not sorry", and walk away.

... loving someone despite what other people think is fearless.

... allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless.

Letting go is fearless.

Then, moving on and being alright... that's fearless too.

But no matter what love throws you, you have to believe in it.

You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.

Because... love is fearless."

Just something to ponder.

~Just maybe.

2009-03-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

I'm trying not to get stressed up.

=P

2009-03-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

I shall try to live by this.

"Be happy.

Be busy.

Be present."

I'll try it out and will tell ya if it's working.

Anyway, this guy's a freaking pharmacist who can sing! Loving him!

~Raw.

2009-03-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 0.5 - Expect the unexpected, and all in all, remain as calm as you can, and get all the information needed before landing yourself in any possible hot soup.

Clerk: Hi, can you call the consultant? He wants to speak to you.
Me: Huh? *stunned* Oh okay.

First thing that came to my mind: "S***. Did I do somehing wrong to his client???"

Clerk: Oh, don't worry lah, he's very nice one... Look for his number on the counter...

Okay, for one, I rarely, rarely talk to any con (the only one I usually do is probably my amp rehab con), because usually, they are like virtually non-existent, and the usual way of communication is through notes (which is, oh well...), or through their little ones (uhuh).

So, when this situation happened, I was really already freaking out. Big time. =P

Is he gonna scream over the phone?? (because I was reminded by the time long time ago that another irritating and irritated reg who was plain pissed off and we really did not have the best of conversations - I think the mo and I do almost shoot daggers still when we walk past each other).

But, uhuh, yes, it turned out that it was not anything major. He even apologised over the phone for disturbing me (oh, yes, the belief that some are genuinely caring came back). It was nice that he stopped to listen to my input and opinion halfway when he rattled on, and even agreed with what I said (p.s. i was having the notes in front of me just in case my mind went blank).

By the time that I put down the phone, I was like, "WHEW."

Thank goodness for such people being rooted and concerned still.

(I guess the reason why he wanted to talk was because of my earlier input, about sending for rehab after first ax - hey, we were taught to suggest dc plans asap what... and they did ask for slow progression. Naturally I would give client benefit of the doubt mah... If he progresses immensely over the following days also good mah..)

And so my eventful call with a con.

Which also reminds me with my conversation with my dietitian, on how we always seem to have a love-hate relationships with the l-k.

And yes, I do agree that they are in that profession for a purpose, and it is really admirable how some of them genuinely care because they want to. And not that they are in this profession just because they "get straight As and choosing this pathway seems like the logical right choice to take" (and end up being irritating to everyone out there).

Uhuh, yeah right.

~Being here for a purpose.

2009-03-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

No longer it is of those days in the past.

With any situation now being as irreversible as it can possibly be.

The time to grow in certain aspects is probably taking a little bit too much time.

*shrugs*

But that can be the beauty of it right?

~Lost time.

2009-03-01T14:25:00.002+08:00

Back, and unfortunately, in action.

Some things I have realized (and unwittingly reminded of) during the trip:

- I hate Maths, even though it is all about dividing every single price by 5
- I'm afraid of heights, and who would have guessed that I had by first cable car ride in HK
- I'm probably good at reading maps
- I need to walk slower, eat slower, think slower (and lesser)
- Being a physiotherapist just multiplied the previous line by 100x, that I need to be reminded to enjoy the time off as much as I can, at a slower pace (sigh, yes, that is really a pity)
- I can really eat if I want to
- I admire people who choose to or are willing to work with animals (yep, the dolphin trainers are sooo good) or people
- I can be an impulsive spender (okay, fine, I'll try to agree with this)
- I'm just mesmerized by guys who can sing (yes, and in tune)

And a whole load of other stuffs....

I'm planning for my next trip! Any suggestions?

~Splendid.

2009-02-18T20:41:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 19. - Notice how a lot of the clients, when teaching stairs climbing with crutches, at the very last step to the top (the last step that they have to take before reaching the top), they will somehow, just somehow, put the crutch up first instead of the good leg. When the previous 3 steps were always done perfectly.

Have been noticing this trend quite a bit; somehow it amuses me. =D

Anyways, people have been impressing me, yet then disappoint me a bit too soon.

Just burst my bubble, huh.

Can't wait for my AL!

~Flying off!

2009-02-11T20:50:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 70 - Unfortunately, don't be surprised at having impromptu conversations with hobamomos (not all of them though).

Him: (Stood beside me and the OT, while looking on at another PT walking a client with the assistant)
Me: (Turn to look at him) Why?
Him: I'm just amazed at how you guys are able to see such patients... I see her already I also chuan...
Me: Ya, so now you know that our job is not that easy right?
Him: Ya, ya... I know, I know... that's why I'm feel grateful that you guys are around to help us, if not arh...
OT: Ya... we help you so much you know... So you guys must also help us...
Him: Ya, like lesser referrals right...
OT: Ya, and also referrals that make sense, and also don't surprise us to do cgt out of nowhere and expect us to do a miracle in one session....

And all of us laughed at the end of it... Depending on how you interpret it, it can be either a sincere "haha", or a sarcastic "haha".

But, giving him credit, I think he's a nice chap. With a loud voice.

Uhuh, another work day.

Can't wait to go to HK next Saturday!

~Waiting...

2009-02-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 31 - Okay, try to be nice. And smile and appreciate when others give way to you first, even though they almost make you trip and fall.

~That's just about it.

2009-01-29T20:28:00.002+08:00

I should get it done and over with, shouldn't I?

Then my part is done. And I don't have to think about it.

Just have to wait and see what happens later.

Right. Let me just do that then.

~Impatient.

2009-01-23T21:25:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 68 - Crutches are friends, not enemies.

It is the education on using them to some that can, and I say some, bring out the almost worse in you.

Yes, especially when your hormonal levels are haywired.

But it's all better today! Yep, trying very hard not to get too agitated. As usual.

=) Think happy happy thoughts!

~Freezing the chill-o-meter.

2009-01-19T20:36:00.004+08:00

right, left, my left your right, your left my right, his right my left, his right my left. my left his left, my right his right??

I thought calling the (ba)mo would appease my infuriation.

Obviously, no.

*flipflip*
1st entry - Right
*flipflip*
2nd noted entry in the same set of documentation - Left
*flipflip*
3rd entry on pathway - Left
*flipflip*
An entry made by another discipline - Right
*scratch head*
*calls up mo-on-charge*
Me: ...can i clarify.... is it a left or right? because there seems to be some sort of discrepency in the papers...
Her: *full of confidence* ...right...
Me: ... sure? okay, can come down to correct the input then?...
Her: ...ok...
*end of conversation*
Me: *seeing client* where pain...?
Him: *points to left*
Me: *hmmm (i mean seriously)* ...ooookayyyyy.... *decided not to touch any LL at all - couldn't get a cow so cudnt check the xrays*
And when I finally did...
Me: *unimpressed* Left!
Her: *came down with her friend* Is that ...?
Me: Yeah. So which side is it again?
Her: *brimming with confidence* Right.
Me: Really? *deliberate silence* Because he complained left side pain.
Her: Really?
Me: *deliberate silence* And the xray shows left.
Her: Oh?
Me: Like, uhuh. -_-!!!
Her: *walks away to check client*
3 minutes later...
Her: Oh, it's a left... *smiling away*
Me: Okay... (Chill-o-meter dropping......)
Her: Oh anyway, do you think we can cgt the wife? but wife got ___ issues...
Me: Will she be able to cope?
Her: Why don't you just teach her and see whether she can or not...
Me: Have you tried asking her? Given that she has ___ issues? How was the client previously? I mean no point me teaching if in the end she still say she can't cope (and seeing the client, you would know what I mean; ngt, # for conservative mx... )... why not get the msw to come in and see?
Her: Okay, i'll go and find out from the wife...
*end of conversation*

To think I have to encounter the discrepency for the second time in 2 days.

And making an entry at 2am in the morning should not be an excuse. What if it was an emergency case in the wee hours of the morning, and it was wrongly written? Does that mean a person may have to lose a healthy limb instead of the affected one?

*cutcutcut*
Oops... this look like the wrong leg lehhh....

~Wonders of exaggeration.

2009-01-13T21:26:00.001+08:00

Mathematics disorder: A condition characterized by math skills that are significantly below normal, given the person's age, intelligence, and education. A mathematics disorder can include problems writing or printing numbers, counting, adding and subtracting, interpreting simple mathematical signs such as +, -, x, and / and learning terms that include numbers.

Mathematics disorder often comes to attention in elementary (primary) school when math comes to the fore as a key part of the curriculum. Some experts believe about 1% of children in the U.S. have a mathematics disorder.

The diagnosis is confirmed by special psychoeducational tests. Treatment includes tutoring, placement in special math classrooms with expert math teachers, and other educational aids that focus on math skills.

Mathematics disorder can be seen as the counterpart to dyslexia or as a special form of dyslexia.

(I choose to believe maths has something against me)

http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=10634

~Naive.

2009-01-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 15 - Just be prepared to encounter the most "duh" of all encounters. Like having four lo kuns trying to do casting for a patient. At times like this, you may be thinking, "Aiyo, why so happening??" when you see 2 people on each side heads down busying themselves with something (like i dunno, resus?)... then you realize, they were just trying to do casting... and you need 4 men to do that??

Maybe they were learning how to do it, but still... it was just totally weird seeing it at that point in time.

The poor client.

Although I must say the cast was done quite well (come on, 4 brains and 4 pairs of hands... if they can't do it well, something is seriously wrong).

That aside, I have a weird feeling that they are going to refer me that client tomorrow...

~Round table talk.

2009-01-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

~Catch who?

2009-01-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 27 - Smile.

Because it helps you get through the day a little bit better.

Smile at your clients, missy-s, your fellow colleagues, and yes the lokuns as well (yes try, especially if you want to borrow the notes or take a piece of sticker or something, since they are always the ones hogging the notes to type transfer/discharge summaries, who are usually the hobamomos...). Because at least the next time, they will try to acknowledge you (hopefully), and not just drag aside your WF and say, "uncle, i give you your antibiotics okay" (doing all this while ignoring you in all of that 1 min).

Yes, unfortunately, there are those who have been subconsciously entered into my black book.

*flashing a wide grin*

Yes, smile.

(No one needs to know the reason why).

~Subconscious.

2009-01-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

I can't teach crutches for 3 consecutive cases, when 2/3 of the time I'm telling them to slow down.

Like, slow down.

Running out of patience with the young and the restless.

~Chill.

2009-01-07T20:38:00.003+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 75 - It is always a good skill to recognise the lokuns' handwriting at one glance. It lets you know who is in charge (especially those nice ones whom you have not seen for a while, or even those you wished were never around - yes, the typical, "sighz, it's this so-and-so! #$%^&*"), as well as anticipate the kind of things they will write (or not). And, at least you know who the person is (so you can find them to clarify things), especially when they initial off and don't write or stamp their names (and they expect people to figure who they are - so unfortunately that's where the ability to recognise handwriting is a bonus).

Yes, currently I can recognise quite a number of their handwriting without seeing their names at the end of their entry, especially the super nice ones (i mean the handwriting), or just the opposite.

Don't you just wonder, in some cases (those with illegible horrendous handwriting), how they actually scribble their life away during exams in secondary and JC - those endless essays and stuff. And into med school?

Seriously, they ought to place 90% weightage of any marks to 'consistent, legible handwriting', because, they might be scribbling someone's life away unknowingly!

~Decipher.

2009-01-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 58 - Always be prepared to be deployed out of your designated environment. Yes, even to other territories (meaning to other teams), you have never thought you would do at that particular moment in time. Uhuh, flexibility is a rule.

And stay chunkily chilled. No matter where you are.

(And yes, it feels nice to be missed! Muahahaha...)

~Toodles!

2009-01-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 12 - When extremely baffled (or even pissed off) with some discrepency in the notes, chill, breathe, and give a thoughtful look. Yes, be angry if required, yet smile and laugh it off if possible. Because, we need at least a sane (and smart) person in this situation to handle things, and thank goodness that you yourself (applaud youself please) are the one with the sane (and smart) mind.

A fine example - While you diligently go through the notes; Day 1 - w/c mob, nwb 1-2/12. Day 2 - fwb. Day 3 - w/c mob, nwb. Yes, get stunned, especially when on day 2, the client walks fwb. Breathe x 10, chill, get your best pal missy to call up to clarify, in case you'll be the one shouting your head off at the clueless person at the other end of the line.

In all circumstances, just chill.

Note everything down to cover yourself.

Don't let things get to you.

And all will be well.

(Love being sarcastic).

~Nothing deserved.

2009-01-04T11:39:00.002+08:00

The Art of Orthomization 101.

No. 1 - Get the nurse and brother (and of course yourself when involved) to figure out "minimal weight bearing as tolerated". Throw blank looks to each other if required. And think very hard if it is meant to be TTWB or a new kind of WB that we have yet to figure out.

More Art of Orthomization coming along the way. Hopefully. I need to poke fun at things to help survive with things nowadays.

Disclaimer: All these are just for the fun of it, okay?

~Never ever.

2009-01-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

3 months to the next rotation (which I'm unfortunately not involved in). Add another month if some people get rotated back.

Then another 6 more months.

Of which I have to decide where to go after that.

I'm getting tired. Already.

~Of all.

2009-01-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009!

I got tired of waiting,

Wondering if you ever comin' around,

My faith in you was fading,

When I met you on the outskirts of town.

~That's all I need to know.

2008-12-26T21:10:00.004+08:00

Oh well, I think there are quite a number of ECs in my ward.

Two possiblities.

Either my standards have dropped, or they really can be nice enough to look at.

And may I emphasize the word "look".

Appreciating my last few days there. Haha. Good mix of gs and #. And the occasional onco and gm.

When I go up, there's only # to do. And you know how I can don't like to do # at times.

And I think I kinda like working with a variety of cases in one ward, like the time I was on seventh floor. Gm, gs, #, onco, ent, cvm, rm, tid, rai, blah blah.

Now I have to start dealing with pure #.

NWB. TWB. FWB. THR. TKR. DHS. HA. Cx. Lx. Tx. LBP. NOF. PNB. RTA. WF. QS. WS. CPM. SLT. TLSO. OA. XR. MRI. PID. DDD. BKA. AKA.

Crutches. Knee brace. Knee ranger. Lumbar corset. Knee gaiter. Cervical collar. Collar and cuff. Arm sling. Jewett brace. Traction. Cast. Hip spica. Back slab. Spinal stenosis. Scoliosis. Spiral #. Compression #. Garden type I, II, III, IV. Repair. Graft. Debridement.

Yep, and a whole lot more.

~Very well....

2008-12-24T18:02:00.002+08:00

Just wonder.

If I contribute to the twisting of my own fate.

Twisted till it can't be entangled.

Omg, I've been working too long in a GS ward.

~Pronto.

2008-12-16T20:55:00.001+08:00

The tallest guy is the cutest! Love his smile!

Yes, stay in school when you can. =)

~Superhero.

2008-12-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

The conductor is cute!

~You had me suicidal.

2008-12-13T20:56:00.002+08:00

As promised... what a hiccup!! (By the way, view it in full screen cuz the blog window is not wide enough)

But yes we had fun.

Right. No more singing chinese songs for me for now.

~Uhuh.

2008-12-13T19:58:00.002+08:00

After all the hard work for this year's year end party!

Rainbow Connection

Guitarists - SinYi & Kong Beng

Singer - Me

Maracas - Seow Yee

Cookie Monster & Tigger - Sally

Piggy & Reindeer - Ann

Props (& the mismatched rainbow) - Christina & Gretel

Will put up the ortho team's performance later....

~The end of it....

2008-12-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

He emailed back.

Now what am I supposed to do?

Such a surprising dilemma at the end of the day after a day of bleeding and vomiting and "giddygiddygiddy" patients. -_-!!!

So much for saying that I'm over it.

Step forward? Step back? Side step?

Can I decide next week?

~Not game enough.

2008-12-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

It's a good feeling to be happy.

Ever since that leave I took, I just had to start filtering things that were coming my way... indulge in and appreciate the good stuffs, and take all the necessary deep breaths before dealing with the bad.

Seems like it's working at the moment. Considering that my outbreak is clearing up bit by bit... aha... still feel stressed though about my outpatient, but I'm trying to handle my inpatient stuffs with a little bit more openess and generosity, so that I have my stress levels in inpatient kept to the bare minimum.

Yes, if I really think about it, the hobamomos are learning things too, like us, no matter how slow (or like duh) it might be.

I guess some of them can actually be nice.

Yeah, I said that.

And I probably still be around working with them when they become regs and cons. So better to have at least a good working relationship with them (still trying hard), like with the nurses and allied health ppl.

....

I wonder if I will take back everything I've just typed out in the next few days to come.

Haha.

Anyway, I really need happy stuffs to keep me happy!

I might even start training to keep my endorphins levels high. The half marathon may be a reality, but of course I need to train my life for it. Aha.

Happy, happy, happy.

And yes, I have moved on. =)

Makes things even happier.

~Patience....

2008-12-02T20:51:00.002+08:00

I think I'm probably done waiting.

My head is done waiting, at least.

I feel split up into two at times, but think about it, I'm getting tired. And I just want to go back to the times when things were so much simpler.

No longer do I want to anticipate what is in my mailbox.

I need to move it, move it...

~As such.

2008-12-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

At this point in time, I'm kinda regretful for sending that email.

Now I really wished that email got lost somewhere in cyberspace.

~So...

2008-11-30T19:56:00.002+08:00

"Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street"

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces"

"I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
I never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours"

Just treated myself the The Script cd, and well, I'm loving it!

~When it is all a scripted destiny.

2008-11-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

I'm not frustrated if you read the following conversation that happened today.

I was just glad that I took the leave on wednesday, because I really had to take a step back and say, "Hey, wait a minute, what the hell am I doing... and why am I feeling like crap??". I just to retract a bit and reset my "chill capacity".

Because if you had known, the past few weeks have been really, really, really crappy.

Anyway, this was what happened today. I had written something for one client, asking for the team to clarify the extent of ROM allowed. And I got a call this morning (they obviously never read any of my input).

Him: Hi, is this so-and-so?
Me: Yeah.
Him: Oh hi, I'm the ho for bed blah blah. About her right, we are actually quite concerned about her left leg because of blah blah blah blah... because she is at risk of developing flexion contracture....
Me: Yes, I understand. I am also concerned about that (which was why I asked them to clarify the rom). So how much extension is she allowed?
Him: Can move as tolerated.
(Not answering my question)
Me: So does that mean she is allowed full extension? If yes i can just put a gaiter on.
Him: I think so. Can move her as tolerated.
(Still not answering)
Me: (gives up) Ok then (I thought it was a simple matter of saying either yes, or no, and if no, the range allowed - because move as tolerated doesn't necessarily equate to full range. and she was happily sitting over edge of bed, that is how much she can tolerate, but it's not full range! get what I mean?).

I was kinda glad my "chill capacity" was reset, because on other days, these things could really make me feel like throwing invisible daggers.

"The world can only do to you what you let the world do to you."

So I'm not going to let these minor minor things break my day... Really need to learn to chill and take things easy. And if I really can't, simple.

I'll just take a day off before I go bonkers.

=)

~The chill capacity.

2008-11-25T21:14:00.002+08:00

Unfortunately realising the extent of the situation that I am in.

Tell me if I'm just depressed, stressed, or plain tired.

breakfast:
- half cup coffee
- 2 pieces of biscuit

lunch:
- half 7eleven club sandwich
- 2 cans of coffee

dinner:
- 1 old chang kee curry puff
- 1 cup strawberry milk

I think I'm mal-nutritioned these few weeks.

Things on my mind, things to do:
1. yep dance/song
2. cp sputum project
3. outpt
4. cpe kaa
5. # kaa
6. cardiac rehab paper
7. and... again...

And being payday today, just doesn't seem to help.

I'm feeling that weird2x feeling over my left chest again. That forces me to take big, big breaths to make it feel a bit better.

~Another step back?

2008-11-23T13:19:00.003+08:00

I'm making little discoveries day by day.

And I have simply NO idea whether to be startled by it or just not.

When things could have just been different.

Posted to a home, wanted imh, but managed to exchange and got into another one somewhere else instead.

But good for that person, at least it is the same discipline.

I think I am better off being the 'silent supporter'. Hope he does well.

And goodness gracious, do you know how near imh is to my place??

Another case of near misses.

Now, was that the third one already?

~Confusional state?

2008-11-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

What Ive Been Looking For (Reprise) - Troy n Gabriella

Not found yet.

~Soon enough.

2008-11-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

For the fun of it, visit this website.

http://www.cartier.com/

The one that I mysteriously dreamt of, was probably close to the Declaration d'Amour brilliant-cut diamond, with the slightly thicker band.

But I like Solitaire 1895 brilliant-cut diamond too!

Haah! Expensive dreams!

~Nonetheless.

2008-11-16T14:43:00.000+08:00

Urgh.

I realised I can be very judgemental.

~Admitting the truth.

2008-11-15T20:30:00.003+08:00

Been feeling a bit maxed out this couple of weeks, especially this week... Don't really know why...

But I do have a strange feeling it is the combination of the crazy preparation for year end party plus my outpatient stuffs.... aha...

I guess that must be it.

And a "Ni shi wo xin nian de yi shou ge" that well, hasn't been found.

Anyway, someone mentioned this yesterday, and somehow, it lifted me up a little bit:

"Thank goodness you guys have a heart."

It may have initially sounded casual during the lecture, but hearing that coming from a much more experienced professional to us somehow had a significant impact in one way or another.

By the way, I think I have a few more ou xiangs in the form of certain regs and cons from certain disciplines... haha...

Fortunately, not one comes from #.

Nor the GS. Haiz. They almost made me lose my head the past couple of days.

And I just cannot stress enough.

I HATE PEOPLE (RIGHT FROM THE TOP TO THE BOTTOM) WHO DO NOT READ OUR INPUT. EVEN THOUGH IT HAS BEEN WRITTEN RIGHT SMACK IN FRONT OF THEM.

No, I still don't feel a tad better writing that in caps-lock.

Why be in such a HURRY to send people back home when there are other social and functional issues that have not been settled, then you have to end up HAVING to keep them longer ANYWAY? It gets even more LESS THAN SMART when the referral is made LAST MINUTE, expecting MIRACLES to happen. We do understand that downstairs is damn packed (we've seen it recently), but if those issues had been addressed much earlier, or that some people had bothered to READ our BEAUTIFUL composition, perhaps they would understand why the people CAN'T go home. It's irritating how they come down looking PARTIALLY SHOCKED and FULLY IRRITATED at us saying that people are either not functionally or socially fit for home.

How many times have I written such an entry for the past eon?

COUNTLESS.

I think I may be reacting like this because in our profession, we are forced to analyse and think and make decisions (and we are literally being thrown to handle things - yes, what we do can be a life and death situation too), as compared to the hObAmOmOs who can be most of the time (some of them, especially....) just "following instructions from the top".

And the classic "Oh, I wonder what my reg will say", that is like !#$%^ (yes, I do emphatise with you SJ!!). I guess I can be quite upset at how the hObAmOmOs are just protected from the nitty gritty nasty decision-making world, while the rest of us slog away, while treading the fine line of life and death at times.

I think I'm more upset at the fact that we are placing our careers on the line while others poke here, palpate there, write a bit, and spend the rest of the time on cows.

I'm still upset at a lot of things, and I need to figure out why.

~Reasons.

2008-11-12T20:43:00.002+08:00

Just another day where I get to be one year older.

Haha.

I hope I'll be blessed with many more great people around me who will help me grow wiser (and smarter because I can be not smart after all, haha).

Hope I'll love more, dislike less, cheer up more, whine less, persevere more, give up less.

Tough thing to do at times, but I think I can make it. I've yet to reach a quarter of a century old anyway.

~Never to give up on myself.

2008-11-02T13:27:00.002+08:00

I seriously do not do well sleeping at 2am in the morning and waking up up 10.15am. Even though it is over the weekend.

Anyway, was watching Cider today, and one of the topics/questions was

"My life is a drama when __________".

See if you have anything for yourself to fill in the blanks as you ponder.

I might know what mine would have been.

~Holiday.

2008-10-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

It kinda irritating to know that on certain days, certain things don't get to you, but unfortunately, on other days, they just do.

And you wonder if smart-looking people do have any brains at all.

Haiz. I'm too lazy to type the whole thing out.

~Bring him home yourself!

2008-10-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

I am so glad that my days of falling down (the stairs, on the floor, being tripped over by others...) are over.

Haha.

~Never.

2008-10-26T12:02:00.002+08:00

I think music boxes are one of the greatest things ever invented.

Just bought one yesterday, the kind in which you have to manually crank it.

Watched HSM3 yesterday... =)

I so need to go out more often and get high on nothing.

~I need this puzzle put together again.

2008-10-23T20:31:00.002+08:00

I think I'm this close to being a new kind of happy.

How to prepare myself for it??

~Lovesick.

2008-10-19T13:30:00.002+08:00

Injuries sustained in October:

- 1 bruise distal to left tibial tuberosity
- 1 bruise distal left tibia
- 1 bruise distal right tibia
- 1.5 x 1 cm wound over right distal tibia
- grazed + bruised left knee
- grazed + bruised right knee
- ligament sprain over distal MCP joint of 5th finger
- possible sprained left ankle
- knock against left temple

in addition to muscle aches, an episode of hypoglycaemia, a runny nose, a sore throat, an infected left upper eyelid. plus unavoidable drowsiness due to medications.

having the time of my life.

~Sure thing.

2008-10-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

I have a feeling that I'm gonna be pretty damn tired by the end of the week.

~One-liner.

2008-10-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

I realized when I get a bit messed up inside, I end up eating a lot.

And, these few days, I'm eating a whole lot.

I'm trying to convince myself it is because I'm a little bit more active playing bowling and captain's ball, which may explain my higher metabolic rate these recent times, and thus I'm stuffing myself at almost every opportunity.

Yikes.

~Get over.

2008-10-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

Ok. Let me not be irritating and abstract for once.

Time to tell the truth.

Mr A, whom I have been having a crush on, is now no longer in the building.

Where he is now, I have freaking no idea.

I wouldn't really say I'm doing well dealing with it, especially when I finally mustered the courage to write a card for him (yes, I admit it, I DID get a tiny card with one word question in it).

I wouldn't even try to begin comprehending what I'm feeling now, because it is a myraid of emotions, a whirlpool confusional state.

And it is driving me a bit insane till I'm feeling a bit numb.

And I do not know what to do about it.

Sure, I'm playing it out (I haven't run like mad for a captain's ball game in a long time), I'm bowling it down (competition's on sat!), I'm stuffing myself (yet my stomach feels like a bottomless pit), I'm reading it away (with the stressful amp rehab).

Distractions.

Yet something just feels odd.

This niggling thing that refuses to go away (like the stupid stinging wound on my leg).

Help.

~Disturbed.

2008-10-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

In the end, castles were half-way built in the air.

Now, I've got three options.

One, tear it down (in a slow bulldozing manner).

Two, keep building on it (in a slower optimistic manner).

Three, leave it stagnant as it is. And figure out what to do with it later.

Frankly, it started out with option one so that I can so get it over with, but it seems like I have somehow ended up with option three. Which utilises a smaller part of the brain at this moment in time.

Feeling tired.

Needing to sleep and forget the world.

~Just not it.

2008-10-04T11:13:00.003+08:00

Just a one word question.

With a scripted introduction.

What a drama.

Two possibilities. Either already changed discipline, or definitely the last month in the current one.

~Maybe it's just one wish away.

2008-09-28T12:45:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't really feel like thinking.

Especially with my stiff left neck acting up again (the same one that made me work 4 hours on a sat instead of 8 hours way back before - still feel kinda bad about it).

Hmm.. what are the chances?

Ah, the phlegmel speaking. Lazy, not very motivated, indecisive, laid back, not ambitious, negativism. Needing someone to give her the push.

Maybe I shall do something about it when my hypocount is more stable in a few days time oi?

~Mystery.

2008-09-26T20:38:00.001+08:00

Oh, the agony.

With no other comments.

Feel like banging my head against the wall.

Oh, the agony.

~Urgh.

2008-09-25T20:30:00.002+08:00

Did a personality test a few days back... And this is the result...

Melancholy

Conscientious, guardian.... natural style is analytical and perfectionist... is the most moody of types ranging from highly "up" to gloomy and depressed... prefers status quo and may seem overly pessimistic.

(Okay, this is so me, and I'm kinda undergoing this pessimistic thing with some issue at the moment)

May choose a difficult life vocation involving personal sacrifice (uhuh...)... many become doctors or scientists or artists... tend to be more indecisive...

Other weaknesses include "thick-skinned" or touchy and easily offended... Can be intolerant and impatient...

Phelgmatic

Steady, Idealist... "easy-going"... calm and steady person... easiest temperament type to get along with... underneath the calm exterior, is the most timid temperament type... more an observer...

...make excellent teachers, counsellors and administrators...

weakness include lack of motivation or even laziness; appear to lack drive and ambition (this is SO true)... often very stubborn, though it is hidden beneath his mild-mannered style... also the most fearful of temperaments...

And mine combined together is...

PhlegMel

Is gracious and quiet, does the proper thing and is dependable. He wobbles between patience and criticism and may tend toward negativism. They can be afraid of overextending themselves so may avoid involvement in a group.

Another step in understanding myself. *nods head*

~Ruffled.

2008-09-23T20:21:00.002+08:00

I was so made to catch my breath once again.

And yes, almost hyper-ventilated, I have to agree with that (Thanks girl for pointing that out to me! Aha...).

On one end of it, it made me blissfully happy and it kinda set the happy vibe that helped me get through today.

Yet on the other hand, I can't help but feel a little bit sad as well. If I think a little bit deeper into it.

Sometimes, the superficial things are the things that hurt you less.

But, knowing me, I dwell too much.

And it doesn't help that yesterday, I was so bent on forgetting; today, everything just contradicts itself. All back to square one.

Happily smiling, although knowing that it's a spiralling trend downwards.

I give up on myself at times.

~To walk fast, walk on your own. To walk far, walk with someone.

2008-09-21T14:34:00.002+08:00

I will miss my straight hair for a while now.

The boss said the curls will last more than half a year, but I reckon it will be the end of this year instead. Aha. Looking at the rate I'm going.

Dear me, 2 days off work is never enough. Why can't Friday be an official weekend too?

~Curlified.

2008-09-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling a bit better.

Ain't that good?

Still sleepy though these few days...

First time going to BSU today, and sometimes, I really appreciate going to these kind of places. Apart from the fact that it requires less than a fraction of your mind to work, it's kinda peaceful, and you don't have people possessively hogging on to the files. Plus every other people who just get in your way thoughtlessly.

It was a bit depressing at some point when you see the occupants in the BSU, where you can feel like they are neither here nor there, just waiting for somewhere, in some time. But they can be so cute though! =)

I just wonder whether I'll be in the same situtation in five decades time, if I were to live that long.

Okay, so I was tired out from that mini excursion, but it was great to have a new experience.

I should really get some sleep soon.

~Still missing.

2008-09-16T21:41:00.002+08:00

I can't help but feel unsettled these few days.

I choose to believe that the only reason that I'm feeling this way is because I'm still adapting to the new team. Plus that I'm half-hibernating for the next 2 weeks still.

Yet, Berry tells me that it may not be just that. By her theory of elimination (there's not much elimination anyway), it sure is something else.

Sigh. Of course my ego adamantly refused to admit it, but there might be half-truth to that.

Now that another one has been let in on the secret, we'll just have to see how things progress.

Who knows?

I can't wait to start donut-ing, ice-skating, karaoke-ing all over again.

Looking forward to the leave in 2 weeks time. I really need a break.

~Missing.

2008-09-12T20:27:00.006+08:00

I think most student nurses can really brighten up your day. I had this bunch today who were so enthusiastic and sweet, regardless whether they are girls, or boys. Appreciated their kind gestures to help, especially when I'm still like a super blur sotong in my ward (although I've covered that place before), trying to re-adapt to the place. One thing different is that as compared to my previous ward, over here, there always seem to be lo kuns hanging around, so it's kinda jam-packed sometimes. Especially in the mornings during their rounds; EVERYONE is just there (not to mention this particular one who has been blocking my way the second time in two days - it's a funny thing though).

And so far, my stand remains the same; I still very much prefer gm cases plus gm lo kuns, because I realised that we seem to manage the cases together a whole lot more as compared to gs and ortho, who, more than a million couple of occasions, do their part and finish their job and just want to chop chop send people home, and usually aren't very open for negotiations. They expect us to fix everything that they might have functionally messed up. Of course, there are those that are easy enough to handle, but it has to be understood that some of them would really benefit from further rehab. And it is not just them, but also their carers as well.

Sometimes I think that some people do not put themselves in the shoes of their own patients enough to understand them. Especially when they just pop by, briefly acknowledge their client, ask a couple of questions, brief examination, jot some stuff down and walk off (and in that space of time, totally ignored any other visible being - until you open your mouth. And YES, I'm the PT). It makes me feel like asking them at times, "How would you feel if this patient is your own parent and that the lo kuns are just going to send your own parent off in this current functional status (especially if they are not back to their premorbid)?" What if it is they themselves in the future? If that is how they guide and pass on the tradition to the younger ones, they ought not to be surprised if they are to be treated in the future the same way they treat their patients now.

Sure, as some people would say (and did say), that it is not a charitable organisation (which totally pissed me off that time), and that it is an acute setting, so they really need beds. But still, if they need further rehab? That is what SSR is for, right? Step-down care.

Okay. Whatever.

And it is particularly disappointing that a person who is not in the best position actually deemed someone as having nil rehab potential. Then what's the freaking point of getting us in in the first place? In this particular case, it is disappointing not because they refused to send to ssr, but the fact that they made the assumption (probably plucked out from reading the stars above them) that the person has no rehab potential. Like I've said, what's the point in getting us in, and not reading our entries, or even ask whether he has rehab potential.

Where did that confident assumption come from?

I'm not mad or angry today, but just a bit tired from having to clean up mess after mess at times. Someone clearly pointed it out to me before that in the end, the lo kuns will decide the final destination. So try as we might, we are just little voices that are just sometimes too insignificant.

Oh well, maybe it's just me. Just like to take her time to do things.

Ya, maybe it is. That's why I seem to get in many lo kuns' way.

But if they know how dizzy one can get having someone to literally scream in your ear when you try to move them, then perhaps, they might understand.

...

Yeah right. Who am I kidding?

It will be close to heaven to be able to work with people who care to listen, understand and appreciate.

~The end.

2008-09-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

I need to book a holiday for myself.

Maybe Turkey? *drooling at the kebabs*

Spain?

New York?

Holland?

Paris?

Like I got the money. Aha.

Still trying very hard to keep awake from 8 to 8.30am these few days.

Feeling a bit disjointed as well.

And, trying hard to recall everything and anything on cervical PID.

Help.

~I do not hate ortho; I just need to revise on it.

2008-09-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

I do not hate gs.

I do not hate ortho.

Been chanting these two sentences repeatedly inside my head throughout the 8 hours today, and seriously, it is sapping all the glucose from my brain, leaving me close to having a low hypocount.

But I still survived first rotation day. Not too bad (except I got a bit upset at someone's entry that I replied with a whole page, with asterisks and capital letters and underline at the appropriate places). Feels like I never left cp team at all... it was like doing cp in the morning, cleared my load, then could help ortho team in the afternoon.

Yeah, it feels like that at the moment. And it is not too bad a feeling. Just need to get used to new systems and all; but load wise, didn't really deviate too much from what I have been doing.

Only when I start my outpatient that it might get a bit more interesting. =)

I just hope I don't get involved with too many ridiculous requests and multitude of mess that I (and a couple of other poor things) have to de-mess and clean up after.

Breathing in the new air of a new environment. Still need to get used to the bustle of the new place (I find that my previous place was actually not too busy, especially in the afternoon). Will update if any interesting things crop up.

At least one of the nurses remembered me! After close to a year I think...

Will continue to chant the first two sentences to help me get through the week, though hopefully I don't really have to do that.

Have to try to be strong!

=)

~Just need to be a little bit more confident.

2008-09-08T21:10:00.002+08:00

Even when he is not around, he just is, somehow.

Because I see his entries everywhere!!

And I doubt a change in environment for me will help, especially when I start tagging along for rounds soon every friday to everywhere and anywhere...

Anyway, I will never get to know what happened on that day! All because I was afraid enough not to look back.

Partially regretful. No, totally regretful.

*rolls eyes at self*

~Abstract enough.

2008-09-05T20:43:00.002+08:00

DaCoWS (05.09.08)

(Overheard between 2 lo kuns)
Him#1: Your handwriting is nice to look at... but it's too small!

Him: (Peering over to look at me) When is hari raya arh?
Me: (Dumb-founded for a split second since it seemed kinda irrelevant) Errr... 1 october...
Him: Wah, so long arh...
(I re-iterated this to my colleague, and we concluded that this man, can be really weird...)

Me: Bila nak balik?
Him: Entah eh... hospital masih sayang sangat, tak nak kasi balik... hee...

Happy Physiotherapy Day!

~Let's be appreciated.

2008-09-01T21:03:00.003+08:00

It has come to a point that I have to change my password for windows log-on at work. Again.

Which means.... it has already been another 3 months of work? Aha.

So many things happened throughout these few months... and things just keep coming.

... jci has come and gone... people leave and people come... from everywhere and anywhere, to everywhere and anywhere.... and you'll start noticing things and people more...

miss you loads bee! miss the times i can rant to you about stuffs... like about Mr EC, whom I don't even know where he is now.

... aches come and go... and come back again... getting more problems on the left side of my body, particularly left shoulder, left knee, left ankle, chest pain blah blah... i wouldn't have known about it until we went for that self-care talk...

Seriously, we really need to take care of ourselves, especially when dealing with things that can totally burn you out.

At times, I feel like packing up and go hibernate somewhere, but listening to simple appreciative comments remind me that I'm needed and appreciated.

And that they need people like me to do the job.

Pretty much tired today.

All I wish is that someone gets through this month a better and stronger person.

~Kind of.

2008-08-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

These are the few things that I learnt today:

1. Rounds are made very slowly that you'll just end up getting stuck in the middle of nowhere.

2. Some people are just big blobs of mantou-s. No fillings up in the head, and in the heart.

3. Being with Berry just makes the most impossible coincidences happen. I do not know whether to laugh, cry, or just get stumped.

4. That if you need to do a double-take, just do a double-take. When two similar looking people who wear the same coloured shirt as each other on the same day, it is so easy to get confused, and create unnecessary confusion.

5. Plus, if you think that comment goes unheard, well, think again. In a quiet area, anything said can be heard at least 5 m away.

6. I don't do well with shocks early in the morning.

7. And I don't do well seeing someone whom I may have expected to see at a place I don't expect to see that person at.

8. We don't have the loudest voice in the team. Hmm... Wait, what team?

9. When you need to breathe, breathe.

10. Time's running out.

~Unknown.

2008-08-26T21:44:00.002+08:00

What will my life be like by the end of the week?

I have left half of my life in the hands of another enthusiastic person, as represented by a tiny teeny thing that can be stuffed into a pocket.

The last time I lost that thing, it took one month for it to come back to me (which I have already given up on within a day), thanks to some very nice soul in the mro and opd.

Now, hopefully it doesn't take longer.

I have no idea why I let her talk to me into doing this.

~Not in the right mind.

2008-08-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

Finally the 51 hour work marathon is officially over.

We are walking bridges tomorrow; hope it will be a nice, cool weather!

Then back to the 40 hour work week.

Can't wait for next Saturday to come.

And perhaps Berry and I shall launch our 'Plan A' (or was it B) soon... =)

~You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me.

2008-08-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

I have been grinning from ear to ear ever since around 12pm++ today.

Although I am tired at this point in time, it really2x makes me happy thinking about it.

I saw mr EC today just when I decided to go over to the other place. And there he was, typing intellectually at the computer. And, he was wearing blue top, black bottom.

Just like me.

And I was grinning till my cheeks ache, and berry was the victim of my rants once again.

AND my cheeks ache even more when I realised who berry's 2nd EC is. Was flipping through some stuffs earlier on, then I saw a person's name who triggered some memory.... It was indeed that person!

Both of us are just going totally bonkers these few days. Especially me. For having to work 47 hours already this week, plus another 4 more tomorrow, hopefully only 4 hours!

I'm so, so, so, so tired.

Yet I'm grateful to someone for making me look forward to work everyday, no matter how tiring it may be.

~Intangible.

2008-08-21T20:37:00.003+08:00

Do I look like I can't open the door?

It happened today, this particular guy already took two steps forward as he opened the door and entered the place, then, upon seeing me from the opposite direction wanting to get out of the place, he actually backtracked and opened and held the door for me.

What disturbed me was how the whole scene played itself out.

I actually said thank you, yet it felt so weird at the end of it.

It wasn't the typical situation in which both of us were already at the door, either both going in, or out, or going in different directions (in this case, I totally appreciate if a guy held the door - but it is so okay if he doesn't though - and sometimes, actually the opposite happens; I'm the one who holds the door for them).

It was just plain weird.

I know he was trying to be a gentleman, but it was a bit complex to comprehend.

And no, unfortunately it wasn't mr EC.

And what Berry and I learnt yesterday, was that, guys either don't express themselves at all, or they just over-exaggerate themselves like crazy.

David Archuleta - Crush

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, try to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away, going away

~Close enough.

2008-08-20T21:20:00.002+08:00

Opportunity!

Should I let it go?

I'm halfway through the week! =)

~Just one smile.

2008-08-19T20:28:00.002+08:00

It still takes me a couple of moments to realise that it is indeed, only a tuesday.

DaCoWS (19.08.08)

Her: (on the phone) I think he's the ho...
Me: (shakes head) mo... rm no ho.... (although I was so tempted to say that, yes, unfortunately he is an mo)

Her: (looks at me) Baik-baik tau... he likes to bite the catheter...
Me: Haha... okie... (actually I knew she was hesitating a bit because she was wondering whether she should talk in malay... so I guess she took a stab and spoke to me in malay - good thing for her, she was right... i was gowned up and masked by the way...)

Me: This is like the first time in a loooong time that I can help.... aha...
Her: Aha... really....

Her: I saw him today!!! And I was so stunned!! He just came out of the lift and I was too stunned... In the end I never say anything....
Me: WHY???? (Haha... I like to disturb her, cuz she always disturb me with my EC)

Her (again): I saw AZ today....
Me: (looking at her - undecided whether to smile, to grin, to laugh, or just whack myself down flat) Haa.... You are like more excited than me... (okay, that was the most decent and safest answer... aha)

Me: Where are they now???
Her and her: Dunno lehhh.....

Her: (reading off from an article) I had a bird named enza. One day, I opened the window, and in flew enza (influenza).
Me and Her #2: (guffaws - seriously, we can be suckers for lame jokes. I know not everyone can take lame jokes; unfortunately I can, and I'm glad some people have low lame-jokes-threshold like me)

Another tiring day, having to keep on our toes the whole 8 hours.

8 + 8 + 8 + 4 more hours to go.

Then maybe next week I can ask Berry to pose that million-dollar question.

Jiayou!!!

~One simple question please!

2008-08-18T21:05:00.002+08:00

Sunday: 7 hours
Monday: 8 hours
Tuesday: 8 hours
Wednesday: 8 hours
Thursday: 8 hours
Friday: 8 hors
Saturday: 4 hours (KIV 6, or even 8 hours if needed)

Technically speaking, I'm working 7 days straight this week. And I barely made it through Monday, as it is now.

-_-!!!

Seriously, I think it would be a miracle if I don't fall asleep by the sink while washing my hands by the end of the week.

You know what might make me a bit happier?

Haha. Mr EC.

I wish.

~You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing.

2008-08-16T14:51:00.002+08:00

Been tired these few days.

And have not been getting as much quality sleep as much as I want to!

It must be because of the audit thingy that's coming up... but it may also be something else as well...

Ya!!! *headache*

~Tweedily.

2008-08-13T21:14:00.002+08:00

Feeling a bit lost today.

And I realised it is way too easy to identify mos who just turned mos, and mos who have been mos for quite a while.

Because some of the former, really can't make it.

And I wonder, how low profile am I actually?

~Yep.

2008-08-12T20:22:00.002+08:00

Currently, there might be a game of 'tailing down the o2'.

Not going very well at the moment.

-_-!!!

~Paper cut!!

2008-08-10T20:40:00.001+08:00

I just feel like screaming.

And have a good sleep after that.

~Why not?

2008-08-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

DaCoWS (08.08.08)

So far, this is the funniest less-then-30secs conversation I had this week.

Him: Is that so-and-so?
Me: Yes.
Him: (Peeped over, ignored me and walked away)... Anyone seen bed 15?
Me: (Looked back at him) It's here....
Him: (Puzzled look) Oh okie... Hmm...
Me: Do you need it?
Him: Oh, you're using it right? It's okay. Oh, hmmm... let me just flip to see if there are any golden words.... Oh well, only mine... (laughs)... thanks....
Me: ..... -_-!!! (I assumed he meant 'only MY golden words' - which explains my expression)

Her: So, Su, did you see your eye candy today?
Me: (Suddenly burst with enthusiasm) Noooooooooooooo!!!!!
Her: (Instantly regretted asking that question): Oh my goodness, I shouldn't have asked!!! You go so ga-ga when I mention his name!!!
Me: Heeeeee..............

(My handphone ringing)
Me: (Went up and stood beside the clerk for a whole good 5 secs, then I tapped her shoulder) Kak.....
Her: -_-!!! Alamak.... I didn't see you....

Me: Hey, how's level 9?
Her #1: Biasalah, gitu-gitu lah...
Me: Haha... kecoh lah tu ehh...
Her #1: Biasalah.... (laughs)
Me: (laughing as well) Oii... why you laughing (asking my guy colleague in the lift, and he doesn't really speak Malay)
Him: I'm laughing because my friend is laughing...
Me: -_-!!! huh....
Her #2: You can speak Malay?
Him: Aha... sikit2x...

Sometimes, our days are just filed with mindless conversations like these.... (although I think he is just amused at the number of people i seem to know).

I'm dead beat.

~Should I ask? Or let the opportunity pass?

2008-08-07T20:50:00.002+08:00

DaCoWS (07.08.08)

Him: Matahari kat luar gelap, so kena tengok matahari kat dalam (loosely translated as - Sun outside dark, so must see the sun inside).
Me: (Grins) .... hee....

Like seriously.

If only someone else said that to me!!

Aha. Madness, madness.

~Miracles.

2008-08-06T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm just going to irritate myself once again.

Mr EC was last seen at 4.45pm at the highest floor today. And I'm so glad I decided to do the auditing today, so I had to go find my auditee at that level.

And decided to find fire extinguishers around the place.

What a coincidence. There Mr EC was, staring blankly (okay, he was concentrating very hard on something) at the computer screen.

Stumped.

Yet, a mystery solved because now we know his possible current hangout place.

Can an expressionless expression be charming? Unfortunately, I find it so.

Yes, I'm already getting people shaking heads at me. -_-!!!

Especially from Berry. Aha.

Damn it. I'm so completely hopeless when I'm smitten.

~Why do I dare not see?